The Journey

I have a few more thoughts in follow up to the last post. I was talking to my teacher last night, and he hit upon some points that pertain to the discoveries I was making in my last post. In order to retain these ideas, I’m going to bullet-point them here:

• Awesomeness. If I realized my own awesomeness, I would no longer feel unworthy or not good enough. I stated this before, but there’s a twist: If I stop focusing on the result of my trigger (“I’m not good enough”) and just start practicing the recognition of my own awesomeness, there would be less space in my mind for the negative thought patterns. I am aware enough of many of my core issues at this point–perhaps a bit too aware, even. It’s time to stop focusing on where I’m getting it wrong and start focusing on how I’m going to start getting it right!
• Consistency. Practicing the new ideas, thoughts, and beliefs that I want to cultivate must be done with consistency. It was consistency that taught me I’m not good enough, respect (and authority)=fear, and I have to earn approval. The only way to disempower these lies in my mind is to replace them with the Truth. Consistent practice of the recognition of my awesomeness is required. This awesomeness is inherent and indestructible simply by virtue of the fact that I was created that way.
• Authority Issues. It is important to challenge this fear not only because I am giving authority to people and things that have none, but because I associate ultimate Authority (God) with fear, still. As we are taught that God is fearful, so does all authority become fearful. Conversely, due to my fear of God, I came into this world fearing and resenting all of the alternate forms that I deemed “authority.” I must challenge this fear not only because these alternate forms are not true authority, but because I no longer choose to fear God, the Infinite Beloved Source of All.