The Journey

Christina M. Cummings

Muser, Ponderer, Talker, Writer

My story begins in a place where certainty was demanded, but clarity was always just out of reach.

I was raised in the clutches of a fringe evangelical Christianity, in an environment shaped as much by fear and confusion as by faith. At 19, I made my first attempt at breaking free—stepping out from that harsh world into the unknown, seeking clarity and freedom. But freedom, as I would learn, isn’t always a clean escape. Eight years later, I found myself in another high-control group—one that mirrored my childhood in unsettling ways, but progressively deeper and all consuming.

I spent 14 years there before I finally walked away—for the first time in my life, truly free.

This blog began during that second chapter, as a private attempt to make sense of the turmoil I was living through. I’ve chosen to leave those early posts exactly as they are—unpolished, raw, and real—because they tell the truth of where I was. They’re part of the story I’m learning to fully own: the good, the painful, the chaotic, and everything in between.

What you’ll find here is an ongoing journey—of unlearning, healing, questioning, and rebuilding. I don’t have it all figured out. But I’m committed to exploring where I’ve been, understanding where I am, and discovering what comes next.

If any part of this resonates with you, you’re not alone. And if you feel like walking alongside me for a while, I welcome the company. ❤