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For a long time I have ascribed to the belief that this life is about lessons. And indeed, the lessons are here if/when we choose to learn them. I decided 14 years ago that I wanted to approach and “tackle” those lessons consciously. Well…I kind of did. They just weren’t always what I thought at
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Rage is a powerful emotion. It is an emotion, and state of being, that I have witnessed in others quite a bit. But it is a fire that I have never allowed to burn within me. It has terrified me. I am beginning to understand why… Like fire, rage is consuming. Out of control, the
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I used to see magic in the world. I experienced it too. Despite so much trauma and loads of personal fears and doubt, a thread of connection to that which lies beyond this material world has always tethered me to something ethereal and something unquestionably real beyond myself. I don’t know where it came from
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I will not be quiet. And I will not hide. We have a long way still to go. But right now…I have to find my way back to the beginning. Back to where I came from in order to begin to figure out where I am now…and how the hell I got here. Are you
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It was me. It was all my fault. I am to blame. …Blame me. That’s how it feels now. And yet…that feels so unfair. Because it was you too. It was us. All of us. But then…what about him? What responsibility does HE shoulder?? None, of course. Never. Not him. He’s not to blame. It’s
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Peering out of the tinted windows of the family van, I laid eyes on a blonde-haired, crystal-blue-eyed boy for the first time and instantly knew that he was going to be fundamentally important in my life. I pointed him out to my sister who was sitting beside me and I announced as much. She seemed unmoved
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Fear is a liar. That has been my mantra of late. Fear is always a liar. The bitch of it is, it always has been and its pure insubstantiality has been proven to me time after time again. And yet, I still seem to fall for it, time after time again. How many times does
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Recently, I was telling my teacher about a situation that I knew I had to confront. But, I was afraid. I told him what I was afraid of. Do you know what he said? He didn’t say that my fear was silly. He didn’t rationalize why I shouldn’t harbor the fear that I did. He
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Has anyone else out there noticed that around this time of year the general populace seems to lose their damn minds? I’ve been watching this week. Watching closely. I’ve been watching myself, watching others, and watching the interactions between myself and others. It’s like a massive, collective kool-aid drinking has taken place. It’s weird… And
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Earlier this week I took a brief but whirlwind 36-hour tour on the blame train. This trip was distinctly of the guilt ridden kind. My ego said “All Aboard!” and apparently I was #upforwhatever. During my guilt trip, I discovered that the anger I had been projecting outward, not so long ago, was actually directed
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